Coming of Old Age Story

Poster for The Substance
Poster for The Substance, “insane” indeed.

Recently with my son I attended a viewing of Demi Moore’s new film The Substance — which is an icky one indeed, including tons of barfing, bleeding, and fleshly grotesqueries. I liked the film, despite my general aversion to sci fi and horror. This was a film that indulged yet transcended the pop genres.

It’s a fable about the difficulties (horrors) of growing old in a youth- and beauty-oriented culture, both in Hollywood and the hinterland. The protagonist of the film, Elizabeth Sparkle, played by Demi Moore, is a TV aerobics star but at the nadir of her apex. She’s 50 years old or so, in other words, and her studio boss, played by a hilariously despicable Dennis Quaid, tells her she’s through. The show needs fresh meat.

To make a long, long story (two hours, twenty minutes) short, she makes a Faustian bargain for something called the Substance, ducking into a back alley as if for an abortion and finding, every time she does so, in an immaculate and sterile room, a rejuvenating kit with instructions.

Back home at her luxury penthouse, Elizabeth shoots up and falls to the bathroom floor, writhing, quaking, her back splitting open grotesquely — not exactly Eve from Adam’s rib but a much younger version of herself, a gal named Sue (Margaret Qualley), who will go on to take Ms. Sparkle’s part on the aerobics show.

Thing is, the instructions make it clear that the two women must change places every week. There is only so much of the substance, apparently, and when Sue is done with her week she must yield to Liz. But Sue cheats, syringing out more days’ worth of the substance from Liz’s back, through a gaping, sucking porthole, than is specified. When she overdoes her stay by a day or two, Liz grows older.

The first sign of this aging is a bony index finger — crooked, scaly, brown! — the first sign of a rapidly advancing infirmity, thanks to Hollywood’s special yucky effects department.

old Demi Moore
Elizabeth Sparkle isn’t sparkling anymore.

Sure, Sue goes on to become the aerobics star, if only briefly, and then to be signed to lead a spectacular New Year’s gala, but she too succumbs to the Substance. As the gala is to commence, she lurches onstage, late, hunched over, over her face a piece of paper smeared with a red lipstick mouth. What better reaction to Quaid’s admonition that “pretty girls always smile”?

Critics have knocked the film as too much horror, and too many grotesque special effects, and it is pretty difficult to sit through for as long as it goes on (especially the ludicrous blood- and yuck-spewing of the final scene at the New Year’s show).

But it’s a powerful fable, as I say, of the illusions of our day. Do we need to be knocked over the head (barfed on) to get the point? Apparently. How many of us won’t go home from the viewing without thinking (shuddering) not so much about losing our youth … but about losing our minds to the infantile preoccupations with youth and appearance?

True, there’s no character in the film, no authorial point of view that stands for the critic, that develops a complex critical thesis, but, hey, this is the movies. It’s a corporeal film and delivers a corporeal impact. Not only the barfing and bleeding and spewing of all kinds, but the more sedate, even painterly nudity: I didn’t mind seeing a naked Demi Moore, even at 50, and her younger self, played by Margaret Qualley, half her age, but these images do not appeal to prurient interest (at least not mine).

I’m not 26 anymore, or even 52, but I look at the gray in my hair, the wrinkles in my face, the keratoses on my skin, and laugh. The maculae, the imperfections, are what I’ve earned — how about you? —  by living the perilous adventure we call life.

Nature lover

Yesterday I prehiked a trail on which I’ll be leading a hike this coming weekend. It was a lovely trail, with ups and downs, narrow rocky paths and wide logging roads. No, there were no spectacular waterfalls, or sublime cliffs, but the Ozarks always offers something special to the attentive.

Rivulet
A running channel that crosses a hiking path at Devil’s Den State Park, in Northwest Arkansas.

I’ve hiked recently with people who complain of the lack of spectacle on the trail. Maybe they aren’t looking very closely or patiently? Maybe they are expecting more than nature can, or should, deliver in every instance?

What if you are with a new lover and tell them they aren’t as lovely as the old one? The one from way back when, could be, when you were both young, voluptuous, flowing, spectacular?  The one you still imagine existing in some far off, exotic, impossible place?

But nature in almost every instance tells us, as we tread her, and treat her softly and reverently, that she loves us. Should we not return the favor and love nature in all its aspects? Only the foolish, seems to me, would throw away such love. Or not be grateful for it.

Thank heaven for little girls

As I was lunching with my friend Bob at Crystal Bridges the other day, the friend who’s been struck with glioblastoma, I was struck by the beauty of a little girl at the next table. Sitting with her parents, a young Indian couple, she sported a beautiful complexion, a long braid down her back, and a lively patter.

Not being particularly shy, I went to their table and told them I admired the girl. The parents thanked me, and when I asked the girls said she was four, not three. Well, don’t be too quick about that, I suggested. You have a long time, don’t you, to be four?

We’re going to a cave this afternoon! she offered. 

Art this morning at the museum, I replied, and nature this afternoon? That’s a lot to cram into one day. Slow and steady is my motto.

When the family left, evidently on the way to the cave, the girl came over to our table and high-fived me.

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Maurice Chevalier, French actor and singer, 1888–1972.

So here was Bob, struck with this deadly and dreadful malady. And here was milady, four years old, a beautiful little girl barely begun to grow. She will grow, of course, as Chevalier suggests  of all little girls in the Lerner-Lowe song “Thank Heaven for Little Girls.” And we hope she will grow, and blossom, and not be blasted by too many maladies or iniquities or inequities. 

And so it goes, the cycle of life and regeneration. I’ll drink to that and to what for most of us, we hope, will be a slow and glorious decline. (There are, of course, no guarantees.)